The most beautiful guy works in my nearest Paperchase.
When I first saw him I was walking by and could see him through the glass wall; he initially brought to mind Will Young but he’s a much rougher, relaxed, sexier version of him. Once I’d got what I needed elsewhere I decided to go back and get something just for the excuse to have him serve me. He has stubble and loads of tattoos and when he served me he had the most amazing smile too. Oh my word I can’t believe how much I wish I could have a conversation with him and see what he’s really like, is that reallllly sad? I keep looking for him in there every time I go in/walk by, and he was in there again today but we were in a rush so I couldn’t go in. If I ever get served by him again I think I’ll mention the tattoos, a mistake I made by not doing so when he did before. Can’t believe I’m writing a post about this, what has my life become.
Considering that my bestie has been away at uni since september (obv she’s been back for the holidays) and that she actually comes home properly for the summer in two weeks, we had our first phone conversation last night. Neither of us really like talking on the phone, it makes is a bit nervous. But surprisingly it was lovely; we spent two hours catching up properly, as we send texts all the time but you just can’t fit in the detail. It was just what I needed as I have been missing her loads recently. I feel like loads of stuff that was on my mind isn’t bothering me so much, because I’ve had someone who really knows me and how I act, advising me on it all. I can’t wait for her to be home so we can hang out down the park and go for bike rides and shopping and cinema and just general spending time together with each other and our other friends like Annie and Jess and Jack and Adam.
Me and my friend are having a conversation about how lonely we are and how we need men in our lives. These are some of the following things I would appreciate:
- films in bed
- cinema trips
- chilling down the park
- random shopping trips for nothing important
- nice texts to make me smile when I’m feeling crap
- long conversations until the early hours of the morning about absolute crap
- staying in bed all day doing nothing
- play fighting and general teasing
- soft, romantic kisses
- hard, passionate kisses
- sex of similar descriptions
Anyone think they can provide all these things? Please let me know…
Just recently I have been going through a weird phase in my life; this has been brought on by the fact that since the age of 13 I have been in love with/had strong feelings for/fancied and in the process of perusing guys. A big chunk of it was one guy, following quickly by another and it has only been in the last few weeks I have finally realised that I don’t have romantic feelings for that person any more. But now I am in a place in my life that I have not been for a long time and that is to be single and bar from seeing hot guys in passing (paperchase has the most beautiful, sexy, rough looking tattooed guy working in there, he also has an amazing smile) I do not have anyone in my life that I have romantic thoughts or feelings for.
Normally I would have at least one person in my life, be in someone I just met or a friend I had known a while, that I had a crush on and would end up ridiculously over romanticising situations in my head and when it didn’t really turn out how I planned I would move onto the next person and repeat the process all over again. It sounds like that person is just an object but unless strong feelings have had a chance to set seed then I am not someone to be offended by people not fancying me back or even by finding me annoying, (if I had to put up with me I would find myself unbearable to be around) it is just how it goes and I let it go.
So anyway, now that there is no one like that in my life I feel a mixture or faint boredem (no one can deny the first stages of liking someone are exciting), relief (that I don’t have to make that sort of effort with anyone and so my time is based on me and what I want to do) and also a desire to be in a proper relationship (which I haven’t felt in a while). I’d just like the comfort of having someone there, not the excitement of new things; someone to hug and kiss and just chill out with watching films or more likely in this weather to go to parks and relax in the sun.
I feel like my time would be better used however, concentrating on friendships and meeting new people. I just want people there who I can speak to about crap and be stupid with and make memories with this summer. I want to go to BBQ’s and parties and chill out down the park and maybe go to gigs or a festival. I want to do these things with friends, old and new.
In a way though it feels like as soon as I start making an effort with friends, they retreat or other things get in my way (like a broken laptop D: ).
Really feeling the need up hang out with guys at the minute, only the guy mates I do have seem unavailable to chill with me currently. I need male communication, not the constant female communication I have had for over two weeks now, bar from the odd bit of small talk or family members. Eurgh…. Male friends where are you?! I hung out with one the other afternoon but it doesn’t seem to have quenched my need. If a random guy asked to hang out right now I probably would, just for the excitement and getting to know someone new.
It’s tiring as a guy to sit here and watch you women, girls, ladies - or whatever you wish to be called - strive for gender equality. You’ve fought endlessly for equal wages, jobs, rights, colours, fashions… you name it, you’ve fought for it. Yet still, when it comes to love interests, you want…
I tell girls I know to make the first move allll the time. I completely understand the whole romantic expectations and how much nicer it is for a guy to make the first move and make you feel loved but maybe they’re thinking the same thing about you too. I can’t stand waiting around for things to happen; I have little to no patience. If they don’t have much confidence or feel unsure about how you feel then what’s wrong with just being a bit more forward and proactive about making things happen? And so what if they say they aren’t really interested in anything more than friends? If you already get on and are comfortable together then you can still be friends and if you don’t already know them then what have you lost anyway? Just go for it!! Make things happen instead of waiting around more someone to sweep you off your feet!
I remember when I was about 12/13 and I used to read teen romance about girls who were 16/17 and thinking they were so grown up and mature and exciting. Now that I’m 19 I think about how young I really was when I was 16 and how it all goes so fast and it’s only really the beginning and that there is so much else to look forward to and get the most out of.
Mum’s just told me that it is 20 years to the day since my mum and dad announced to my dad’s parents that they were expecting me. What a strange thought that is. My grandma had remembered this fact because if my grandads mum was alive it would be her birthday, her name was Minnie; I’ve always loved this name, I think that if I ever have a girl I may be tempted to call her this.